Answer?

i have been searching for the answer scince that day...
i know that knowing the answer will do no good...
i just want to know...
or. keeping it left behind my mind is for the best?
or. knowing it, is the best?
asking? is not the right time...
no one helping me...
not even my friends...
what can they do? they are not putting me down...
i just want to do it ALONE...

alone...
i like that word...
i like doing that...
sometime it is the best thing to do...
sometime i just want to STOP seeking for the answer...
i just want to forget all about it...
but the past keep coming back to me -like a wave, washing up everything from land to land...
''past is past, now is now. Stop thinking about it" that's what they say...
i TRY to keep it lock in mind, but no use...

try...
i try evrything to keep it togather...
but it just want to go...
so i have to let go...
-this is the past
evryday i regret...
evryday i wish it was a dream...
bad dream/ nightmare
but...